On the word "Goal"

Now, the word "goal" is a perfectly good word. "Something to be accomplished." Nothing wrong about it. But for me...somehow the word "goal" gets twisted and morphed into, "I'm doing it, so you should do it too." Like, "My goal is to get through college without debt," or something like that. "My goal." Two perfectly innocent words suddenly become full of pressure. "My goal should be your goal too, because I acheived my goal, and if i can, you can."


Why is that? I don't know. You'd have to ask my subconcious. I'd rather use, "Things I want." Things I want. simple, and it means the same thing, pretty much. But these words carry no pressure or anything. Which is what I love about them. It's probably that letter "I." I. Me. Mine. No one else's.


Some things I want: to fall in love; get married in the temple; be a mom; be an author.
Feels less of a to-do list when i call it things I want instead of goals.

CHRISTMAS MUSIC!!

One of the many things I love about November is when the radio stations start playing Christmas music. To my great delight last Friday when I went home, the radio was playing the Christmas music that I love.


Now, I know a lot of people are gonna rise up with their torches and pitchforks to complain that Thanksgiving comes before Christmas. I know that. but, believe it or not Christmas music makes me excited for Thanksgiving.


Why? Because the songs remind me of being home, where either something from the oven or a candle warmed the whole house. It makes me think of home. It makes me feel like a little kid again. It brings me home. And who are you to make me feel that I'm not at home, comfortable and safe? Who are you to deny me my childhood memories?


Besides, we only "get" to listen to this music once a year, so I say we live it up and listen to it from the moment they start to the moment it ends.


Maybe why winter is so dreary after New Years is because there's no Christmas music to get us excited for anything.

Update 9: Sick Day, New Shows & More.

Hello, world! or all 5 of you that follow me. Anyways, I didn't update the blog for a while because I was sick. With a cold. And I was rather miserable. I took my first sick-day for school. It was a very boring day here at home, but I needed it. I just felt so lousy, and I didn't want to spread my sickness around any further. So I hunkered down and got feeling better.


I have two new shows I'm in love with. Number One is Once Upon a Time. Oh good GRAVY do I love this show! First off, I love fairytales and fantasy, second, I love a character driven show. And (so far) there's not a lot of emphasis on having sex or anything like that. I will probably be buying this series once it come out on DVD.
My other new show is an anime called Rozen Maiden. A very basic plot outline: There are these dolls that come to life and have very strong personalities. The twist? They must kill each other in order to become the perfect girl. Love it? Oh yes...


Let's see what else is there? OH! I had a last minute costume for halloween. I was a fairy (wingless fairy). My roommate had these butterfly masks and she let me have one. I painted it myself and I was quite proud, but it lacked...that Nessa flair. As I was walking home from school, it hit me: you have nail polish. Sparkly nail polish. So I wore a blue dress i had (points to me for keeping it up here!) with my mask on my head. Yeah i know you're supposed to wear the mask to cover your face, but then no one would know who I am. OH, i wore it for a ward Halloween party FHE thing :) Yay me!


Hopefully, I won't go as long in between posts again. But hey, I have a life to live, so I will go live it.